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I’ve been soooo busy, Landen keeps us busy most of the time and now my photography is booming (no complaints there) First things First….I would like to let you all know, I am going back to work in a WEEK, ahhhhhh….I’m going back to work on November 10th, I have mixed feelings, part of me is excited, the other part is dreading it. What I’m expecting is that the first week will actually be easy, then it’s going to get really really hard…and then eventually when we get into a routine, it will be ok again. But it’s unfortunate that as soon as Landen is getting really fun (giggling, cooing and just smiles) It’s time to go to work.

Landen is a good baby, he is…but he is difficult at times as well. I can’t say I wasn’t expecting it to be tough, but it is really tough sometimes…how on earth people have baby’s back to back is beyond me, sometimes Josh and I will say…I’m not so sure about having more kids, haha. But it’s also very rewarding and although the first 3 months is as tough as it is, it’s all going to get better soon. Actually I think it’s going to be better once I’m back to work and not having to entertain him all day every day.

He had his 2 month shots last week, he did well when he got them, I actually cried more than he did probably, he was really good right away, in fact he mostly just slept…but the next evening he was really fussy but we got through it.

He is holding his head up better, and learning new things all the time, each week he changes so much…his little thighs are still very little…but looking so much bigger to me.

The hardest thing about him is putting him to sleep, I’ve never seen a baby fight falling asleep as bad as him, and even when he is asleep he wakes up a lot off and on if he is alone, which is why it is so difficult to have him sleep alone in his crib all night, and it’s beginning to get very hard and frustrating, of all the things I thought would be hard before I had him..I never thought putting him to bed would be one of them.

I breastfed for the first 2 months, and we’re weaning him off, it’s WAY earlier than I planned and I’m actually extremely dissapointed in myself, but I’ve learned from it and I’m hoping with the next baby I’ll be able to do it for a lot longer. It’s probably going to be easier with daycare for him to be on formula though and I keep telling myself he got breastmilk for the first 2 months, which is more than some people have…and the more the better, I’m still giving him some occassionally but my milk supply is practically deminished, I could probably get it back, but It would involve 2-3 days of doing absolutely nothing but pumping and nursing every hour, and although I’d like to say I want it back badly, I don’t think I do that bad…I don’t have the time or the patience and I don’t think Landen does either.

Today is Halloween, we didn’t do anything…but I did get some cute pics of Landen which are in this post. We painted a pumpkin on his butt, we = my sister and I…Josh wouldn’t have any part of it, haha. It’s too cute though and he got me back by peeing on my while I was holding him, so we’re even.

Ok..well enough rambling for now. I am so sorry I don’t post here as often as I should!!